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Well, have done about 35km since last Saturday. Hills, no hills. Company, solo. Let my brain talk me out of a bushwalk which I will be doing this Sunday, no excuses. The one thing they all have in common is that it feels like I am struggling with it this week. Each kilometre is being mentally hard earned.

The difference though is that I am doing it. Not procrastinating. Not making excuses. Just doing it. I am hoping that my body rhythm takes over again and makes it a necessary movement instead of me fighting myself to do it.

In the end though, it has to be done to create the better me that I am wanting...and by that I mean a more healthy, stronger, and fitter me. I may just decide to stay crazy. :)

Anyway, planning tomorrow's walk. 7.5km or about 9km. Haven't decided yet.

Saturdays the good way

Well I did it. I text a friend yesterday to see if she was up for a walk this morning. She was. Surprised her with the let's get an early start. That is not normal for me. I am usually the one that kicks and screams to be gotten out of bed early and I started with a pre-walk 2.5km to her place too. Today's calculated total was 8.2km. There was also 1 1/2 hours of wandering around a suburban markets to add to it. Good start on the next phase of my journey. Yay.

Must keep the mental side of it up as ended up feeling a little blue tonight and that's when I have a tendency to give it all in. This is me changing that. Another good walk lined up for tomorrow too. 

Until then...

It's been a while...

Well, it's been a while. Life, loss, anxiety, job and an inability to move forward all got in my way. Time to start the next chapter. 

As of today I am at a weight of 106.7kg with nearly no exercise done since January...well nearly none anyway. Time to get of my fat, depressed butt and find that motivation that I had last year. I have very clearly defined goals and a wish to achieve them. There is no magic fairy out there that will wave a wand and make it happen. Only I can make it happen. So here I am again, putting it out there for criticism and critique and making myself publicly accountable for any action or non-action I take.

I am going to try to post weekly on my progress - or lack thereof if I have been making excuses again - and maybe, just maybe see those numbers start to go back down again.

Wish me luck! :-)